Comfortable Imagery

Note; I have hit a little bit of writers block but I also had things that needed to be done. I needed to get some cleaning done and craft work done.

Intro/recap

     I became a kandi kid and decided on calling myself an AB Kandi kid. By no means do I imply all kandi kids obsess over stuffed animals and little things like I do. On the other hand there are a lot who enjoy these things but I would not label them with the letters “AB”.

     I gave up my DL side and for the most part even regression. I still like to regress every now and then for a quick moment but I do not let myself get caught up in it like I used to attempt. The idea is to dress up as a child and then act like one. I was mostly fond of the idea of being innocent again.

     What I learned however is that I was only making the emotional scaring from my child hood worse. The first couple of attempts of giving up my AIO's I would replace it unintentionally with adult stuff on the web. Temptation got me because my since of security that my DL side gave me was gone.

     After praying to God for understanding and even gave up for a little while. I was frustrated because I could not exactly control my temptation. Then I saw a character named Pacific glow on MLP while hanging out with a group of my pony friends and I noticed she had a pacifier on a necklace. It was then that I began to think of Pacifiers. Needless to say I now use that for a sense of security instead of my AIO's at night and for my moments of anxiety and depression.

Graven Image or imaginary

      Key verses Isaiah 44:13 (KJV)
13 The carpenter stretcheth out his rule; he marketh it out with a line; he fitteth it with planes, and he marketh it out with the compass, and maketh it after the figure of a man, according to the beauty of a man; that it may remain in the house.

Exodus 20:4King James Version (KJV)
4 Thou shalt not make unto thee any graven image, or any likeness of any thing that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth.

     It just seams so peculiar to me how people think its weird to have a security blanket such as a stuffed animal or blanket. Then when they learn you have an imaginary friend they freak out. As an aspiring writer I create my characters in a realm that I go to in my mind. Some stay and others leave. So I have an outlet for talking without bothering anyone but I am not making a graven image.

     I think all you know that chapter in Isaiah about the guy who worshiped the wooden figure he made. (Isaiah 44) Things bring us comfort but God never said; "do not create." He said; "do not make idols," or in other words graven images. (Exodus 20:4)

     I technically still have mine from when I was bullied in school. I had friends but no one to call a close friend. Like I said before; no one could tolerate me. When I was in high school roughly 2008 I got me a plush named Pinkie pie. She was the 20th anniversary edition jumbo plush.

     She comforted me and help me so much that I realized that I needed to start over. She became my security blanket and that even cured me of sleep apnea. I use to take prescription sleep meds. Ever since then I was able to get off of them without so much of a sense of withdraw.

     Although my stuffed animal comforted me I did not fall to the ground and worshiped it. I might interact with her in my mind like I do my other characters but all of them have agreed to submit themselves to God just like I do as a living sacrifice. It is this that makes it possible for me to write my book series that I hope to publish. With it I hope to paint a masterpiece that changes people. I know that all things are possible through Christe who stranghens me.

     To put this all into conclusion I am amazed at how people find it weird for an adult to have or use a stuffed animal as a security blanket. God said; a graven image was a sin not that we cannot create. God gave us all a talent. Why not use it to comfort people including ourselves?

Reality of Ban-Dage

Alternatives and otherwise
Is green Plur anymore?!!!

     Like I explained earlier; pacifiers were invented to appease. In the very beginning it was meant to settle the emotions of a child. Interesting part is that its something that can be as affective or more affective than the expensive OTC drug. Its harmless and even legal compared to ecstasy but what does the fox say?

     I would never stand here to say its more important than God or the Holy spirit but let me ask you a question. Would you rather some one to use something harmful to their health just because they thought it would solve their problems. Would you want them to suffer to the point of giving into the lies of street drugs?

     Oh the irony how the drug dealers will lie about their stuff. Everyone thinks that getting people to be “mature and normal” will solve the drug problems. Removing kandi from it all only puts a band aid on all of it. Do you really think that Drug dealers are going to give up that easy?

     In my opinion; out of all the stories I read dating back to 2006 of the post dates or otherwise dates of publishing; mentions how pacifiers cure anxiety. I may be wrong but its highly likely that the use of pacifiers for anxiety/depression, snoring, and bad habits was used and hid before it was even documented in the form of public forums. Now lets picture that with the rave scene. Do you really think that it was meant for drugs from the beginning. Come freakin on people!

     Everyone deals with some form of deformity and difficulty like I said in my previous blog. It is in my opinion the saddest thing to hear that the reason why some one got addicted to a drugs is because they were told that they would be cured of that difficulty and or deformity.

Reality of it all
America and the fall

     I was with my friends yesterday at a pizza place because we are headed to a convention. (Yes my paci is part of my cosplay of a kandi raver from my book Evandom.) We ate at a really popular restaurant and I brought up the subject of the ministry I want to be in. Music and kandi or as I say Spiritual kandi is my ministry I am aspiring toward.

     We suddenly started talking about drugs and how easily one can mistake it for something else. Also we talked about how my home town high school is beginning to be rumored to have problems with drugs. My heart broke and if it was not for my meds I would be letting it out.

      The reality is that “Drugs” have not been stopped by the ban of kandi or otherwise cute objects such as pacifiers. If anything they are now more harder than ever to fight because no one is marked in any way to say they are the dealers. Great job Rave police. You created a new brand of war and people are dying in their personal problems and addictions.

Prayer for my blog

“Oh Lord forgive me of my transgressions because I know I am not perfect. I beg that you help me understand and be a light in a dark world. Peace, Love, Unity, and Respect is all people want. Lord I beseech you to help guide me in my travels and in my ministry of Spiritual kandi.

“Lord I end this blog segment in a request that who ever does not feel accepted would feel the acceptance by reading this because that is in truth all I want. Even if its one person than I am satisfied because I know I am speaking to some one who is struggling. Lord help them know that your Love, Mercy, and Grace is more than enough to forgive even the most weighed down sin filled heart. I claim this in your name and the name of Jesus who can Love the broken and the addicted. Amen”

Everybody gots a somethin

Streaking Pink 
A world shaded by pain

     Life for me was never easy. I remember and so does my mother when I first started having very bad anxiety and depression. (Thank the Lord I have my meds these days) My mother came in from outside and I was just a little thing. I was scared of myself that I may hurt some one. I can't remember why or even imagine it but that is how I felt. My mother saw I was crying.

     Pink streaks in a world of pain as I see it. We all have an imperfect brain and bad habits to go along with it. My way of dealing with my anxiety and other times with depression it is a pacifier at home. I had to do away with other bad habits and activities. These activities I mentioned previously were bad for my emotional health. Like I said it was only continuing the emotional scaring from my school years. It seamed like a good exchange.

     I learned that with wisdom brings responsibility and sometimes grief as KJV says in (Ecc.1:18) The more I learn the harder it becomes because I grieve for my past. I know I am going to get hit when I become successful with my art and writing. My music, writing, and crafts involve the rave and it has a

     I also learned that what I done previously was not always right and in some ways I wish I never did them. Just because I have scars does not mean I should hide and cower. It means I should be in search for answers in prayer. It means responsibility in saying the truth even though I get hit from all sides.

Comfort in a world of difficulty
Holy Spirit

     Everyone has something that they are dealing with. My mother told me a story about a time when she was in a psychology class. Her professor warned all the students to try not to see themselves under one of the definitions of a diagnosis.

     I think I have fell in love with neon colors and beads the same way I fell in love with MLP. They seem to have an appeal to me now that mean something. Like I said about my pacifier is what I reference to the Holy spirit being a pacifier of the human spirit.

     It is amazing how God sent us a comforter called the Holy spirit and that if we keep his word priority that we will lack nothing except shame. Like it says in (John14:23-28) I will not be afraid to stand for what the Rave can be with my vision. The one thing that keeps me going is how it began as simple as a creative writing assignment.

     Timothy the main Character learns of the Rave like I did and brings communities together as one so that they may have peace and strength in the war that they travel through. Now I know who I should be and it all makes sense why I have all these hobbies.

     Like I said the streak of pink in a shades of pain and that ain't gray but black that which is symbolic to the dark times we face today. I will not hide in shame for who I am because “People;” God is Plur! I will wear my pacifier proudly one day even if its only YouTube videos.

..................................Foot Notes....................................

John 14:23-28King James Version (KJV)

23 Jesus answered and said unto him, If a man love me, he will keep my words: and my Father will love him, and we will come unto him, and make our abode with him.

24 He that loveth me not keepeth not my sayings: and the word which ye hear is not mine, but the Father's which sent me.

25 These things have I spoken unto you, being yet present with you.

26 But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you.

27 Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

28 Ye have heard how I said unto you, I go away, and come again unto you. If ye loved me, ye would rejoice, because I said, I go unto the Father: for my Father is greater than I.

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Ecclesiastes 1:18King James Version (KJV)

18 For in much wisdom is much grief: and he that increaseth knowledge increaseth sorrow.