A world shaded by pain
Life for me was never easy. I remember and so does my mother when I first started having very bad anxiety and depression. (Thank the Lord I have my meds these days) My mother came in from outside and I was just a little thing. I was scared of myself that I may hurt some one. I can't remember why or even imagine it but that is how I felt. My mother saw I was crying.
Pink streaks in a world of pain as I see it. We all have an imperfect brain and bad habits to go along with it. My way of dealing with my anxiety and other times with depression it is a pacifier at home. I had to do away with other bad habits and activities. These activities I mentioned previously were bad for my emotional health. Like I said it was only continuing the emotional scaring from my school years. It seamed like a good exchange.
I learned that with wisdom brings responsibility and sometimes grief as KJV says in (Ecc.1:18) The more I learn the harder it becomes because I grieve for my past. I know I am going to get hit when I become successful with my art and writing. My music, writing, and crafts involve the rave and it has a
I also learned that what I done previously was not always right and in some ways I wish I never did them. Just because I have scars does not mean I should hide and cower. It means I should be in search for answers in prayer. It means responsibility in saying the truth even though I get hit from all sides.
Comfort in a world of difficulty
Holy Spirit
Everyone has something that they are dealing with. My mother told me a story about a time when she was in a psychology class. Her professor warned all the students to try not to see themselves under one of the definitions of a diagnosis.
I think I have fell in love with neon colors and beads the same way I fell in love with MLP. They seem to have an appeal to me now that mean something. Like I said about my pacifier is what I reference to the Holy spirit being a pacifier of the human spirit.
It is amazing how God sent us a comforter called the Holy spirit and that if we keep his word priority that we will lack nothing except shame. Like it says in (John14:23-28) I will not be afraid to stand for what the Rave can be with my vision. The one thing that keeps me going is how it began as simple as a creative writing assignment.
Timothy the main Character learns of the Rave like I did and brings communities together as one so that they may have peace and strength in the war that they travel through. Now I know who I should be and it all makes sense why I have all these hobbies.
Like I said the streak of pink in a shades of pain and that ain't gray but black that which is symbolic to the dark times we face today. I will not hide in shame for who I am because “People;” God is Plur! I will wear my pacifier proudly one day even if its only YouTube videos.
..................................Foot Notes....................................
John 14:23-28King James Version (KJV)
23 Jesus answered and said unto him, If a man love me, he will keep my words: and my Father will love him, and we will come unto him, and make our abode with him.
24 He that loveth me not keepeth not my sayings: and the word which ye hear is not mine, but the Father's which sent me.
25 These things have I spoken unto you, being yet present with you.
26 But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you.
27 Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.
28 Ye have heard how I said unto you, I go away, and come again unto you. If ye loved me, ye would rejoice, because I said, I go unto the Father: for my Father is greater than I.
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Ecclesiastes 1:18King James Version (KJV)
18 For in much wisdom is much grief: and he that increaseth knowledge increaseth sorrow.
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