Intro/recap
I became a kandi kid and decided on calling myself an AB Kandi kid. By no means do I imply all kandi kids obsess over stuffed animals and little things like I do. On the other hand there are a lot who enjoy these things but I would not label them with the letters “AB”.
I gave up my DL side and for the most part even regression. I still like to regress every now and then for a quick moment but I do not let myself get caught up in it like I used to attempt. The idea is to dress up as a child and then act like one. I was mostly fond of the idea of being innocent again.
What I learned however is that I was only making the emotional scaring from my child hood worse. The first couple of attempts of giving up my AIO's I would replace it unintentionally with adult stuff on the web. Temptation got me because my since of security that my DL side gave me was gone.
After praying to God for understanding and even gave up for a little while. I was frustrated because I could not exactly control my temptation. Then I saw a character named Pacific glow on MLP while hanging out with a group of my pony friends and I noticed she had a pacifier on a necklace. It was then that I began to think of Pacifiers. Needless to say I now use that for a sense of security instead of my AIO's at night and for my moments of anxiety and depression.
Graven Image or imaginary
Key verses Isaiah 44:13 (KJV)
13 The carpenter stretcheth out his rule; he marketh it out with a line; he fitteth it with planes, and he marketh it out with the compass, and maketh it after the figure of a man, according to the beauty of a man; that it may remain in the house.
Exodus 20:4King James Version (KJV)
4 Thou shalt not make unto thee any graven image, or any likeness of any thing that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth.
It just seams so peculiar to me how people think its weird to have a security blanket such as a stuffed animal or blanket. Then when they learn you have an imaginary friend they freak out. As an aspiring writer I create my characters in a realm that I go to in my mind. Some stay and others leave. So I have an outlet for talking without bothering anyone but I am not making a graven image.
I think all you know that chapter in Isaiah about the guy who worshiped the wooden figure he made. (Isaiah 44) Things bring us comfort but God never said; "do not create." He said; "do not make idols," or in other words graven images. (Exodus 20:4)
I technically still have mine from when I was bullied in school. I had friends but no one to call a close friend. Like I said before; no one could tolerate me. When I was in high school roughly 2008 I got me a plush named Pinkie pie. She was the 20th anniversary edition jumbo plush.
She comforted me and help me so much that I realized that I needed to start over. She became my security blanket and that even cured me of sleep apnea. I use to take prescription sleep meds. Ever since then I was able to get off of them without so much of a sense of withdraw.
Although my stuffed animal comforted me I did not fall to the ground and worshiped it. I might interact with her in my mind like I do my other characters but all of them have agreed to submit themselves to God just like I do as a living sacrifice. It is this that makes it possible for me to write my book series that I hope to publish. With it I hope to paint a masterpiece that changes people. I know that all things are possible through Christe who stranghens me.
To put this all into conclusion I am amazed at how people find it weird for an adult to have or use a stuffed animal as a security blanket. God said; a graven image was a sin not that we cannot create. God gave us all a talent. Why not use it to comfort people including ourselves?
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